Something blue?

February 19, 2010

I go in for my next dose of chemo tomorrow, that’s of course if they call on time. Last time they had me waiting around for two days and then they called me in. Moffitt is a very, very busy cancer center. This time I’m having Methotrexate. I should be in the hospital about 3 or 4 days, hopefully no more than that. I then get a week off, do it again, another week off and then a dose of the dreaded “red devil” Adriamycian/Doxirubician and the Cisplatin. I can only hope that I get no more fluid build-up around my heart from the Adriamycian. My chest hurt so badly the last time I had it I thought I was having a heart attack. I now have to have an echocardiogram after each cycle to make sure it doesn’t get any worse.

In other news, Brandon and I are trying to throw together a last minute wedding. Truth is, I want to be able to walk down the aisle. If we wait until after my limb salvage surgery, we’ll have to wait until sometime next year for me to be walking again. Also, in a way we’re doing it “just in case” anything happens. I’m very positive I’ll get through this but, you never know what could happen. We’ve been wanting to get married for years but, finances were always short and health insurance was an issue. Since I turned 23 last year and could no longer be on my dad’s insurance, I had to switch over to COBRA. So, it doesn’t matter if we’re married or not now. Finally, after 5 years I’ll be able to say Brandon is my husband and not fiance!

Our family has really pulled through, we are very blessed to have them. Everyone is chipping in for the wedding and it makes me want to cry. They have already done so much for us and now want to ensure that I have a beautiful wedding. I am very, very lucky.

I’m excited but also worried about doing it last minute. We’re only inviting family and close friends, so we know almost everyone will be able to make it. I’m planning on doing it April 10 or 11, my white blood cell counts should be higher then, since I’ll be about 2 weeks between chemo treatments.

I went dress shopping today and fell in love with this dress. I had a hard time finding one because so many are strapless now. I needed something that would cover my port in my chest. I was also lucky enough to find a beautiful headband and veil that fit perfectly on my wig. Anyway, here is a link to the dress I got. It’s vintage looking, lace, and champagne colored. David’s Bridal is being so nice in working with my on my alterations since I have so little time and I’m sick a lot. I’m thankful they understand.

So, things are well. Wish me luck tomorrow. I’m hoping the Methotrexate doesn’t have as harsh of side effects as the Adriamycian and Cisplatin do!

” Laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live. ” – Author Unknown